fly high

Hmn...I just want to write something tonight before doing my works or maybe sleep after this. haha. Feel so sleepy after having some food during my comeback from Care Group time. Ok, what the story begin then. This week is harsh and unpleasant week for me. However, i want to thank God for what is happening. I feel glad as going through this week. 3 great things that is happening to me. eventually, my presentation date is changing to 2nd November, my 3p group works and practical training. Ok, start from the last thing. At the beginning of the semester i don't feel that i want to do my internship at next semester because i feel that my pointer is not that good enough and i want to repair it. that is why the reason i keeping my industrial submission very long time already. second for that reason is i don't have driving license that will make me difficult to go to work and intend to extend so that i can have time to get my driving license. however, when i call my mom and we talked a lots about my future and family. i just wake up by something. actually, on another shoulder of mine, there was a great hopes from my mom to see me graduate soon because she wanted me to help her to taking care of my other relatives. i can feel that through her voice and i even can hear she crying at the phone. i don't know why she is crying. after that she reminded me the story when i was a kid. how the people treated me, untrusted me and look down up on me just for a piece of KFC wing. and then she says, "did you remember that incident son?" and I answer, "of course i am". truly say, i even cannot forget that incident until now. what i can say at that time is i just a kid like others kid as well. wanted everything that i desire but the people always trying to look down on me. keeping me cannot reach out those that i desire. but, i don't feel disheartened or feel revenge because i knew i was different from other kid at the time. that is why i can stand where am i today. i knew that God always on my side since from beginning. and then i say to my mom do not worry because God will give us justice. and He always be. therefore, that is the reason that i change my mind submitting my practical submission and I really hope that God will be my side again. well, past is the past. and i want to learn from it. i suffer before but i do not want people under my care suffer as me suffer. that is my determination. Ok. back to the second matter. On the Wednesday, i was keen to submitting my practical letter and before that i asking of approval from my advisor. During that time, i was really surprised because i just get knows that my presentation for final year project is changing to Monday 2nd November 2009. in my heart, "oh my God!!!". i don't know what to say already. It is really a time for me to depend on God again. simple as that. haha...see what He will lead me. 3rd matter is Project for Professional Practices. This week, the one that really give me headache is this thing. Most of the member trying to blaming me and look fault on me. But i was at right side. thank God. during the meeting, my team member always get scolded by the director and repeated so many times why they are not looking for the leader consultations before starting to their work. and keeping scolding those people why not learning from Project Manager. haha...I am is the Project Manager. God always give me justice no matter what. regarding to those all this thing i just can come out one good question. Why is the people not trying to value the result before it happen? but trying to appreciate and looking for it when they already lost it. As for me? it also was become a difficult question for me to answer before this. However, there is point that i cannot remember make me to start change my thinking. And I glad to do it. haha...well, looking forward to another great week then.